I WISH I WAS A BEAM OF LIGHT
I Wish I Was a Beam of Light, 2009, single channel video, infinite loop
I Wish I Was A Beam of Light combines two moving images merged into a single channel. One clip is appropriated footage of Catherine Deneuve in Roman Polanski’s 1965 Repulsion. The other clip is of myself before my camera in the posture of the near comatose Deneuve, re-enacting a shot of her lying on her bed beneath a solitary beam of light, paralyzed and traumatized by the barely perceptible sounds of her sister’s sexual encounters in the room above her. The footage is of myself is blended with that of Deneuve, alternating the intensity of each so that one is not sure if what he sees is me trying to emerge through the face of Deneuve or vice versa.